Thank You All

Just to let all of you know, YES I love talking to all of you and I love seeing that occasional sweet comment on a blog post :)

HOWEVER I do get frustrated about 89% of the time running the blog.
These are just a few of the reasons
I read more then I can review
I end up talking to myself
My friends get shiny ARCs and I end up with a nasty green eyed monster saying "I must" (this one is just because Im a teenager. Cut me some slack people!)

However aside from that last reason. I DONT do this for free books, or popularity, granted being a teenager there a moments where I wish I could have that Crescendo ARC sitting in my lap like the INSANELY lucky Kelsey Dickson, but in the end I know that its one of those things that not everyone gets.

In the end I do this because I love to read, granted I feel totally out of the loop and like my blog isnt going to go ANYWHERE in life, but maybe Ill just have to get some people to help me, you know talk to people outside of my small comfort zone :)

OFF TOPIC: Really I would love some help to get out of my small circle of comfort. If anyone is willing to do this really thank you, maybe it will stop this insecurity about being alone in the blogosphere, you know like having a fear of dying alone (which is another of my many fears)

Back on topic: When I posted "Time To Call It Quits?" I was basically suffering from insecurities about my blog and my fear of dying alone (in the blogosphere!) and I was seriously considering quitting. But oh my god. Fifteen minutes into these comments you guys were leaving and I swear to god I had a river of tears streaming down my face, and I think Im going to start crying again thinking about them.

So after much talk with Kelsey Dickson and Courtney Rae and after seeing amazing comments like these.....

"I personally like it. But I'm not Ari and don't know what is going on in Ari's head. I doubt I really want to. Just kidding. Maybe. :)Point is, do it for you."-Courtney Rae


"Ari! I love you, and I love your blog. GIRL, you have more followers than I do! However, you shouldn't do it for the followers, or to see how many ARCs you can rack up, you need to do it for you."-Kelsey Dickson


"Personally, I don't think you should quit. I don't know you, but you seem like you must be awesome since you talk to yourself in the third person. And if you read for fun, you might as well put it to good use, right?"-Julie


"I actually just found your blog recently but I really like it. It's not my decision though. It's completely up to you whether or not you keep posting. If it's no longer enjoyable for you though, it probably means you should at least take a break."-Katie


"Well I do read what you post, but if you're not enjoying what you are doing anymore... you're the only one who can make the call"-Tynga


"Size of the review doesn't matter. It's how well you write them. Yeah, ours might be long, but that doesn't mean you can understand a word that is put up there.And if you feel stuck, like you're not going anywhere with it. Or you want to get in with more people. Push your way through. Talk to authors and publishing houses. I know you can talk up a storm to them. You have stayed up for HOURS talking to us about your love of books.But the big question is: Do you want to continue posting? Don't think about how many followers you have or how many people will read it. Think about how you feel about it."-Courtney Rae


(this one really made my day)"Besides, you know those blurbs on the back of books from other authors telling you how awesome they thought the book was? Yeah, one sentence TOPS"-Kelsey Dickson


"See, I now follow your blog. I would be SAD if you quit. *nod*"-Julie


"Then maybe you should keep doing it. You don't even have to post everyday, just post when you have time, or when you feel like it. And maybe you'll just keeping help that one person at a time."-Kelsey DIckson


"If you enjoy it, then keep at it, but you have to do what makes you happy."-StephTheBookworm


"OMG dont leave, I am reading!!! I love your blog, it's soo adorable, and your reviews are always so awesome, I have been WAY out of the loop lately, life has gotten kinda nuts...but I am reading..."-Book Crazy Jenn

I know thats a lot for you guys to read. Sorry. But I wanted to properly thank each and everyone of these people.

They were the ones who had me and tears and made me turn to Kelsey and Courtney and say "I dont think Im allowed to quit"

And for the record, a lot of you said things along the lines of "Do it for you."

Sadly I must tell you guys. You are wrong. I do this for YOU. And thats part of what caused my insecurities, I felt like the people I were doing it for didnt care. I felt like I was going to be reviewing books from teh 90s in 10 years.

Thank you all so much for basically giving me no choice, in all honesty you all made me feel so much better about thsi small little blog I call my baby.

Im staying.

Love,
Ari

PS I wasnt going to post till Wednesday but my twitter got a status limit like 6 hours ago and Im going insane.